The Good, The Bad and the Ugly and Some Ridiculous!

    As we get ready to celebrate our 1 year anniversary of entering the mission field I thought it would be appropriate to share my emotions on this crazy roller coaster ride.  I would LOVE to say that these are feelings I have had throughout the year occasionally but the reality of it is....I experience MOST on a  DAILY basis.  I would be lying if I said this has been easy.  The only absolute I can tell you is how much I have to rely on God for strength and sanity!  So here are just a small portion of my thoughts through the day and quite literally how quickly they can change.

• LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE IS SO HARD!!!!!!!!!  I want to crawl in my bed and throw the covers over my head!

• I feel like I made some really good choices today!

• Man.....I screwed up!

• Thank you God for using me to save a life today (either physically or spiritually)

• The ugliness of sin from abuse, greed and sexually immortality makes my heart shatter into a million tiny pieces.

• I really miss fast food drive thru's!!!!

• I'm not doing enough!

• The beauty God shows me in the hearts of people and on his earthly creation literally makes my heart feel like it's going to burst.

• Just curious but why did you invent mosquito's and allow such high humidity?

• There's so much need and I am just one person.

• Why me???  Why did I have to move so far from my family that I adore?

• I love it here!!!

• I want to go home!!

• Thank you Lord for the AMAZING people you have placed in my life.

• Can I not do anything right???

• I am so proud of my family for being so strong.

• Stop asking me for "things"!

• Please someone invent a microchip to insert into my brain so I can be instantly fluent in Spanish!

• It's so awesome to work along side of my husband!

• I am with my husband wayyyyy to much!

• Thank you Jesus for leading me here.

• I am blessed! 

• Use me Lord!

I am grateful for every single one of these thoughts and feelings because when we are pushing ourselves out of our comfort zone....that's when we grow closer to God.