My "I Just Need a 5 Minute Pity Party!" Post

I feel bad for even writing this because there are so many people with so many bigger problems in the world....trust me....I see them daily.   But today....in my head....it is going to be a hard Mama/Wife day.....I'm not going to lie....it's going to suck.  And if I hear one more person say, "God never said it was going to be easy"  I think I'll scream.  We knew none of this would be easy.  We would have been slightly delusional if we thought moving away from all you know would be EASY!  But today is an especially "not easy" day.  Brian and Maddie are flying back to the States for a not yet determined amount of time.  We have never been apart more than a week.  Sydney is getting married in December.  We couldn't be happier.  This is an amazing new chapter in all of our lives.  But first....we have to get there.  Our current funds are not enough.  So Brian is going to leave his job on the mission field and go work in the States.

I woke up this morning feeling panicky.  Tears were coming but thankfully my brain told me to PRAY.  Instantly God took me out of my "selfish" thoughts and pointed me to His gifts.

I am so grateful to God for......

• My families health.
• Brian's former boss Dave for allowing him to come back to work whenever needed.
• For Nana to fly Maddie home with Daddy so she can see her friends and family she misses.
• My husband being willing to do whatever it takes.
• For Go MAD's understanding when we have to leave our jobs for awhile.
• For Mario to stay home and be the man of the house and protect his Mom.  :)
• For Sydney and Mark who are so understanding that a wedding can be beautiful and low cost.
• For Raegan flying here for a week to see her Mom and keep me from going insane.
• For Tyler to host her Sister and helping her with Homeschooling.
• For my parents and Maddie's friends who host her.
• For all our friends who are hosting Brian with your sofas and extra bedrooms. 
• Nana and Papa for picking them up at O'Hare and the use of your truck for Brian.
• Churches for having him share what we are doing here.
• For the staff/interns here to fill in the void while he is gone.
• For my friends here that are keeping me sane.

I'm truly mean every word from the bottom of my heart....but I am writing this down and should probably print it so Mario can read it loudly to me when I go into a full blown panic attack.  ;)


Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Thank you Jesus!